Work...

Have you all ever had this experience in life whereby you suffer from a nervous breakdown just because life was so caught up with you? Or ever had workload that seems never-ending... No matter how you much you plan or accomplished, it is just not ending... Workload comes one after another... Just when you thought you saw a light at the end of the tunnel...

Then "PHAM!"... The mountain is back...

We'll always ask "When is this f**king shit going to end?"

Let me tell you...

IT DOESN'T END!!!...

It's true!! We slog our whole life for our education...

Then for our career...

Then for our children...

Then for out retirement...

Next thing you know... People are attending your funeral... You just became another statistic... Pathetic huh? Face it! This is life! We can't defy GOD's will, or go against social norms...

So what can we do? Go on slogging!! There's nothing you or me can do to change this cold hard reality...

We're made to work...

Love...

It's an excuse for the reproduction of human species...

Many of you will think that I'm being too cynical here... But after all the damage I've seen that is done on the expense of love... You can't blame me on for being so skeptical... Pro-love supporters will claim that because there's so much sweetness in love, that's why there's so much hurt involve...

Personally, I don't buy it... If this is the case... Then I would rather do WITHOUT this so-called sweetness...

Recently, I've came across this case...

After 20 odd years of union, the man found out from an outsider that the woman that was sleeping beside him all these years turned out to be so different from the one that he thought he knew... Realised the betrayals and ultimate truths that she has been hiding from him all these years... All the stuffs she has done unto him without his knowledge... Given any sane man... He would have flared up and left her... This man didn't... He didn't confront her... All he said was " I've been a fool for these 10 years"... He hasn't left her... Yet...

Was it love? Or was it the thought of living a life without her... The fear of changing unchanged... I don't know... However, no matter what is the reason behind it... At the end of the day... I'm just going to blame it on love...

It's a powerful tool... Many had use it as an excuse to hurt the one they so-claim love... Intentionally or unintentionally? I don't care!! The harm has done... It's the same concept as mending the broken vase or nailing the nail into the fence and taking it out again... The scar has been inflicted...

And guess what... Such harm not only affect the direct party... Those who are near are also being affected... Sometimes, they wound more than the victim themselves... Reason? Because they do not have the stand to scream and shout out their grievances... And not only do they have to bottle up their feelings... They have to be THERE for the wounded... Constantly... Why? Because given that they have gone through all these alone... They know that the journey to recovery is a long and tedious one... Thus, they know the importance of companionship along the way...

Therefore, NEVER underestimate the ones beside you... Sometimes, they love you more than the ONE, you thought... Though they can't give you the sweetness that the ONE gave you... But... They can give you the comfort you need when you are most wounded...

Love?? Arrgh... It's for those who hasn't reach "Nirvana"... A game for fools... An excuse to hurt someone...

Manipulation...

There's always a time in your life where you'll somehow be manipulated or staged a manipulation...

No matter how "pure" or "innocent" this person is. It's in the blood of man to be selfish... More or less we'll always weigh the pros and cons behind each decision we make... and how it'll concern us... After much consideration, we'll then choose the one that is of advantage to us... Through this act, we've manipulate the whole situation... The difference between a scheming person and a common man would be that the scheming one is able to manipulate the whole situation without getting caught... While a common man will tend to let out his tail or is too excited to let others know of his tricks...

Is manipulation a good thing then?

For those who're being used would definitely oppose to this act... However, we'll have to question ourselves... Didn't we tried to pull such act on others before? Just because you're now in the losing end doesn't mean that Manipulation itself is a bad thing...

Personally, I'm one who supports such agenda... Manipulation... It's a must-have survival skill in this modern jungle... Survival of the fittest! However, there're those out there who says that scheming equivalent to evil... No, I don't agree... At least for me... Being able to manipulate has made me who I am today... And it actually helped me in surviving in the harsh environment I lived in... If I'll to be ignorant and be pushed around, I would have landed myself in mental instituition... There're to many unanswerable questions in my life... However, by being able to manipulate... I'm able to change the whole situation to my side of the table and make others see my point of view... And not see their own disillusioned ones... See? It helped me... So... I'm going to keep this skill of mine... Even though many view it as something negative... I can never go back to that innocent girl I used to be...

However, nor am I going to let others know that I'm no longer the innocent girl... This is how a master of manipulation works....

Tests...

Every now and then, someone somewhere is going through a rough patch in their life... Some complained, some slipped into depressions and some even decided to take the easy way out...

For someone who has been through many downs in life, I would suggest to these lost sheeps out there... Take these as tests in life... Tests that tests on your patience, on your endurance and even your perspectives in life... If one can walk out this whole mess... Congratulations! You've passed the tests that many failed... There's no grades for it though... However, the only thing you get out of it is a Stronger you... You may even walk out with a totally different perspective... Be it a more cynical or a better you... You've changed... It's through these changes we grow up and evolve... Embracing life in a brand new perception...

Welcome to REAL world, my boy...

Life......

Life... What's the defination for it? Hmmm.. I wonder... We always grumble about it, always try to live the fullest of it, always hate it... So what is it? Why is it so difficult to live life? Why is there some who craves for it while there are those who can't wait to end it?

My life... I live in a crazy world... Revolve around crazy people who are always not happy with their lives... At times I join them, but most of the time I'm there as their listener them... This is the least I could do... Sometime I wonder... Is my existence in life is determined by how much I'm there for them?

It recently dawned me... When is the time someone out there is willing to hear what I've to say? Where is the Me for me?