Spoilt...

Ok, I admit... I'm a spoilt brat... Spoilt by my parents since young... Same goes for my younger brother... We're known as the spoilt brats... Just like one of those little spoilt brats in Singapore...
Not something I'm proud of, definitely...

However, I've to say something regarding this subject... For those who really detest us spoilt brats, I need to clarify something here... We being brought up as spoilt brats is not something we choose to be... Such "phenomena" is because of what our dear society has led us to... Ask around...
How many Singapore family could actually led a well-to-do lifestyle with just the income of one parent?

Nah... Not many...

Except those lucky previous-generation spoilt brats who inherited their wealthy dads' monies... Other than them, not many actually could live with just our daddies' income...

Ok, back to my topic... Due to my parents' busy work schedule, my brother and I were mostly left by our own with our dear Filipino or Indonesian maids... So you can say that we were not really taught well by our parents... That's why the creation of these two brats...

However, what I want to say is that being a spoilt brat was not what we wanted to in the first place, and I'm sure neither it was in our parents' plan...
But since things have turned out this way, not that I'm saying we should continue our wildful ways...
But at least, give us some time to change our way of doing things...
Give us some time to realise that what we're doing is wrong...
Please don't judge us so soon...

For those who knows me and those who reads my blog knows that I've a dysfunctional family... I'm openly admitting to it... Not something to be proud of... But something I'm honest about...

However, as much as I ramble on my family stuffs... I still love them... They are afterall my family... I'm still protective over them... I still feel terrible when people talks bad about my family...

"I can talk bad about them 'cause they're my family members, but it's not ok when you do the same"

That is why I don't comment much on other people's family members... 'Cause it is their family members... Who am I, as an outsiders, to comment... Isn't it?

So for now... This spoilt brat shall continue her journey to be a better person... She's only asking for more time and patience...

Welcome!~...

Heyo!!
Realised recently that several of my friends actually got hold of my blog address...
Welcome welcome!~ To the little world of mine...

This blog is set-up supposedly as an avenue for me to blah about my thoughts... Didn't tell anyone about it at first... But as time flies, told some of my close friends... And recently, it gets spread around... Which is totally cool with me... Hehe... Happy to see my tag-board gets active! :)

School's starting soon!! I kinda missed studying... Really unusual coming out from me... Especially those who knows me... Ha! But it's true... I missed sitting down with a textbook studying... So it seems like it's a good time to start school... However, still... There's some mixed feelings to the whole school reopen thingy...
Excited: 'cause my boy is joining me in school... It's been around 7 years since we were last classmates... Ha! This better be good... :)
Sad: 'cause holidays are ending... No more slacking days, no more holidays... :(

It's been quite a holiday! Enjoyed myself thoroughly... Had my trips, to KL, to Bangkok... Though all regional, but was fun!... Had my biological clock turned upside down with all the late-night outings... Ha... Almost went to explore the whole of Singapore's night-life... No worries... I didn't club much, just went driving and eating around Singapore at late-nights... That's all... Been a good girl, been a good girlfriend... Not bad... Hope things stay this way... :)

Anyway, 'nuff said about my life... Will soon be back again... But for now, Ciaoz peeps!






P.S. Keep my tag-board active k... Muackzzz

Sick...

I'm sick...

The doc says it's food poisoning... Very bad case of diarrhoea and tummyaches... Have been bed-ridden for the past 2 days...

Through this experience, I'm really grateful to those who showed me the care and concern... Thanks... Especially to my boy, who's Sunday morning sleep was ruin by my terrible tummyache...

When you are sick, you become a child... A difficult one... One who really pisses the adults off... I'm now that kid...

When you are sick, you become an emotional wreck... Maybe because you have too much time to think, maybe because of the medication... I don't know... But you become someone you don't even recognise...

I can say that I've become someone else... Maybe for the time being... I hope... Someone scary... I'm pissed at any small events, at any small cock ups... sigh... Maybe it's the medication talking... I don't know... But what I know is I'm losing faith... In many areas... Hope the old me will be back soon...
I hope...

Ageing...

Received a phone call from my mom an hour ago... She was downstairs in her room... Supposedly asleep already... But... She sounded weak over the phone when I answered... She was having her giddy spell again... And requires me to go to her room right away...

Rushed down... She was lying on her bed... Apparently, she needs help to go to the toilet... Just by going to the toilet, she needs me to hold her to the toilet... After which, I brought her back to the bed and massage her head for her...

At that moment, my heart broke... Seeing her so weak... So helpless... So aged... My heart aches... I held on to my tears till I'm back to my room... What happen to my mom?! That strong woman who raised me? She is just 50 years old, and yet she has a body like a 70... For the second time in my 21st years, my heart broke for her... For those who knows me know about the turbulent relationship I have with my mom... But tonight, my heart goes all out to her again...

And to make matter worst... All these while with my dad in the next room having his usual mahjong sessions, my brother in his room... I agree with the fact that I have a dysfunctional family... But... Can't I have little family love here? My dad plays a very important role here in futhering the dysfunctional trait in this family... He makes me wonder if all marriages end up this way like theirs... Does many years of marriage really kill the love till this extent? Maybe he loves her... But... He is not showing the basic care and concern here! Hello? Is it that difficult to stop playing your bloody mahjong for 1 day?

Ageing...
Now seems to be swallowing my mom...
Now seems surrounding me...
Now seems terrible to me...
Now seems so real to me...