Ageing...

Received a phone call from my mom an hour ago... She was downstairs in her room... Supposedly asleep already... But... She sounded weak over the phone when I answered... She was having her giddy spell again... And requires me to go to her room right away...

Rushed down... She was lying on her bed... Apparently, she needs help to go to the toilet... Just by going to the toilet, she needs me to hold her to the toilet... After which, I brought her back to the bed and massage her head for her...

At that moment, my heart broke... Seeing her so weak... So helpless... So aged... My heart aches... I held on to my tears till I'm back to my room... What happen to my mom?! That strong woman who raised me? She is just 50 years old, and yet she has a body like a 70... For the second time in my 21st years, my heart broke for her... For those who knows me know about the turbulent relationship I have with my mom... But tonight, my heart goes all out to her again...

And to make matter worst... All these while with my dad in the next room having his usual mahjong sessions, my brother in his room... I agree with the fact that I have a dysfunctional family... But... Can't I have little family love here? My dad plays a very important role here in futhering the dysfunctional trait in this family... He makes me wonder if all marriages end up this way like theirs... Does many years of marriage really kill the love till this extent? Maybe he loves her... But... He is not showing the basic care and concern here! Hello? Is it that difficult to stop playing your bloody mahjong for 1 day?

Ageing...
Now seems to be swallowing my mom...
Now seems surrounding me...
Now seems terrible to me...
Now seems so real to me...