We live in a world that is ever-changing... Our lives are on a constant change... That is why we have to have the skill to adapt to whatever situation that life throws us in...
A friend of mine recently commented on how much he dislike changes... That was why his life kind of went topsy-turvy when life decided to do some changes to his... However, what my dear friend didn't see is that what kind of person he had became after all these changes... From an outsider's perspective, trust me... He has now become a much likeable person compared to a year ago...
See! Changes isn't that bad afterall...
Of course we do agree that when things were getting good, we won't want any changes to it... Crossing our finger hoping that it doesn't end... Hoping that time would stay stagnant at that time...
However, sorry to break the news... It doesn't work that way!
Thus, I've come to an conclusion... It seems like we have to taste what is sadness before we can truly appreciate happiness... Yah... It seems like this is the most logical reason I can think of...
Just like what's happening to me...
2 weeks ago, I was having the hell of my time... Had 5 straight days of partying... To celebrate my birthday... And I tell you... It is REALLY hard-core celebrations... And next thing I know... 2 weeks down the road... Here I am... Having to go through a very terrible agony... A problem that has no solutions to... And to make matter worst... It involves many of my love ones... They were all involved because of me...
"I'm truly touched to have you guys beside me at this time, but I'm also truly sorry to drag you guys in... You all are innocent... For my sake... Don't get involve... I'm feeling really bad... It's something I've to settle it myself... "
That's why, I say we need to be adaptable... Try to adjust to whatever changes we are thrown into... Able to stand up blow after blow... This is how in turn we changed and become a stronger person...
So here I am... In kind of deep shit... But no worries... I will come out of it... Like I always do...
Cheers to all the shits in life!!
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Friday, January 28, 2005
Money...
Money, money, money
Must be funny
In the rich man's world
Money, money, money
Always sunny
In the rich man's world
Aha-ahaaa
All the things I could do
If i had a little money
It's a rich man's world
-ABBA Money Money Money
Money...
Root to most problems...
Be it the richest man or a homeless pauper... Everyone has money problems...
It doesn't go away! It is constantly there...
There to haunt you... There to trouble you...
The bad news is... There is NO solution to this whole mess!
Nope... A definite N.O....
Not even the help from Mr Tua Bek Gong on ToTo or 4-D... The misery doesn't end there... Actually to some "lucky" ones... It is the start of all misery... Countless worries, countless headaches...
Money...
It's just a medium of exchange in our modern world, supposedly created to solve our batter trade problem...
Instead... It became the root to our modern Man's headaches...
What have we done to ourselves?
Is it money that we really want?
Or it is just the little greed in us that is driving us?
I don't know...
However, I've learn something in my short 21 years in this world about money...
Money...
It's something which is never enough and it is something which we CANNOT NEVER live without...
Must be funny
In the rich man's world
Money, money, money
Always sunny
In the rich man's world
Aha-ahaaa
All the things I could do
If i had a little money
It's a rich man's world
-ABBA Money Money Money
Money...
Root to most problems...
Be it the richest man or a homeless pauper... Everyone has money problems...
It doesn't go away! It is constantly there...
There to haunt you... There to trouble you...
The bad news is... There is NO solution to this whole mess!
Nope... A definite N.O....
Not even the help from Mr Tua Bek Gong on ToTo or 4-D... The misery doesn't end there... Actually to some "lucky" ones... It is the start of all misery... Countless worries, countless headaches...
Money...
It's just a medium of exchange in our modern world, supposedly created to solve our batter trade problem...
Instead... It became the root to our modern Man's headaches...
What have we done to ourselves?
Is it money that we really want?
Or it is just the little greed in us that is driving us?
I don't know...
However, I've learn something in my short 21 years in this world about money...
Money...
It's something which is never enough and it is something which we CANNOT NEVER live without...
Monday, January 24, 2005
SORRYs & THANK YOUs...
Sorry... Hasn't been blogging...
Thank you... Had a very good 21st birthday celebrations...
Sorry... For neglecting some of my dearest friends...
Thank you... For the being there...
Sorry... For moving on with life without you...
Thank you... For the love you all had given me...
Sorry... For not being there for you all as much as I wished I could have been...
Thank you... For tolerating me...
Sorry... For things I should not have done and even more for things I should have...
Thank you... Lord, for giving me such beautiful angels surrounding me...
Thank you... Had a very good 21st birthday celebrations...
Sorry... For neglecting some of my dearest friends...
Thank you... For the being there...
Sorry... For moving on with life without you...
Thank you... For the love you all had given me...
Sorry... For not being there for you all as much as I wished I could have been...
Thank you... For tolerating me...
Sorry... For things I should not have done and even more for things I should have...
Thank you... Lord, for giving me such beautiful angels surrounding me...
Thursday, January 06, 2005
Commitments...
I hate commitments...
Totally hate that fact that I need to be answerable about my actions to people... Maybe that is why I'm still happily single till today... But what I meant commitments is way beyond the boy-girl relationship type... I meant having to explain my way of doings to people or even them telling me what I should or should not do...
For goodness sake, this is MY life... I know what I want and what I'm doing...
For normal case, when someone crosses these lines, I will F**K them upside down inside out... But if they turn out to be close friends of mine or I'm able to see where it's coming from, I will swallow my F**k-up mood and listen to what they have to say...
However, trust me, I will normally not change for the better... I'm THAT stubborn... That is also one point my mom dislikes me so much... I'm just not meant to be that kind of sweetie-pie girl who listens and obey! It's not in me! Those who knows me knows it... This is the very thing that made me who I am and unique from the others!
And coming back to commitments... Maybe I'm one big weirdo or there's something wrong with the world... I just don't see why some people actually craves for it... Maybe this is coming from someone who hasn't been in a relationship before... But what is the actually fun behind it? Having those strings attached? Isn't it causing a hindrance as to how you live or enjoy your life? Wasting time reporting and explaining to people who at the end of the day might F**k off from your life forever...
I'm a more to actions than talk person... So maybe at the end of the day, if I ever be commited to someone, that person have to know me deep enough to get used to what I'm doing... Don't question my actions, just be there for me... Like what I will do for him... Hmmm sounds difficult for some... But we never know... Maybe there's such a person exist or maybe I will become a changed person when in "love"...
But till then, I will continue living the life I am having now... Not being questioned, not being committed...
p.s. 8 days to R(A) show... haha
Totally hate that fact that I need to be answerable about my actions to people... Maybe that is why I'm still happily single till today... But what I meant commitments is way beyond the boy-girl relationship type... I meant having to explain my way of doings to people or even them telling me what I should or should not do...
For goodness sake, this is MY life... I know what I want and what I'm doing...
For normal case, when someone crosses these lines, I will F**K them upside down inside out... But if they turn out to be close friends of mine or I'm able to see where it's coming from, I will swallow my F**k-up mood and listen to what they have to say...
However, trust me, I will normally not change for the better... I'm THAT stubborn... That is also one point my mom dislikes me so much... I'm just not meant to be that kind of sweetie-pie girl who listens and obey! It's not in me! Those who knows me knows it... This is the very thing that made me who I am and unique from the others!
And coming back to commitments... Maybe I'm one big weirdo or there's something wrong with the world... I just don't see why some people actually craves for it... Maybe this is coming from someone who hasn't been in a relationship before... But what is the actually fun behind it? Having those strings attached? Isn't it causing a hindrance as to how you live or enjoy your life? Wasting time reporting and explaining to people who at the end of the day might F**k off from your life forever...
I'm a more to actions than talk person... So maybe at the end of the day, if I ever be commited to someone, that person have to know me deep enough to get used to what I'm doing... Don't question my actions, just be there for me... Like what I will do for him... Hmmm sounds difficult for some... But we never know... Maybe there's such a person exist or maybe I will become a changed person when in "love"...
But till then, I will continue living the life I am having now... Not being questioned, not being committed...
p.s. 8 days to R(A) show... haha
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
The New Year...
It's a brand new year!! And it seems like the new year started out with a bang already...
For one, the tsunami disaster that took place... I almost teared just by looking at the scenes of people dying and crying at places so near us... I wished I could do more... But... There's always buts in life.. Sigh... So for now... All I could do is to pray for these lost souls our there... May you rest in peace...
Let's have a minute for the victims of these calamity...
Ok... It's the new year... I shall not dwell too much on the unhappy events around us... Though I truly hope that people stop dying and make the world a better place to live in... Anyway, coming back to the new year... Before we embark and embrace the new year we should always do some reflections on the past year... So here I am doing some sort of personal reflections... Please don't mind me...
2004... Hmmm... It's been a interesting year for me... Believed I grew up alot during this year... Learnt and experienced many life-changing moments... For one, my great-grandma suddenly passed away 3 weeks ago... Didn't cry till the very last day... Became the top 3 cry-baby of the family (according to my cousins)... Think they had a shock to see me cry till like this because... Trust me... I'm not known for my crying... However, this shows something... My tear duct is still working... Not bad...
Next would be my aunt being relocated to her Tokyo office... My dearest aunt... I can term her as my... Hmmm... "unmother" mother? I treat her as my mother more than my mom... Haha.. Can't blame me... She was there when I needed most... Kind of my mental support... Then, she left... Left this cock-up place for a better place in Tokyo... Feel so happy for her... Finally!! She's living the life she always wanted... Of course I'm sad that she left... But really glad for her... Let's just say life hasn't been good to her till now...
Then, as for my friends... There were ups and downs here and there... The problem with me is that I've many close friends... And I feel sad when I'm not able to give them the care and concern I should be giving as a close friend...
So... To all my friends out there...
I'm sorry if I haven't been there much for you guys... I'll try to be a better friend this year but trust me... You all are always in my mind... And if you guys ever run into some problems or trouble... Don't hesitate to call me... I'll never say no to you all...And will always by your side... Cheers to our friendship!!
Next, though I don't have the perfect happy family... But I still thank God for giving me what I'm having now... I may complain about them every now and then but at the end of the day, they're still my family... They play a part in making up who I am today... So... To all the cock-ups families around... Cheers!!
Lastly, on a personal level... I think after 2004, I should really get more serious in life... Stop procrastinating... Pay more attention to my studies and try to reduce my complains in life... Afterall... We only get to live once...
p.s. 10 more days to adulthood... Cheers!~
For one, the tsunami disaster that took place... I almost teared just by looking at the scenes of people dying and crying at places so near us... I wished I could do more... But... There's always buts in life.. Sigh... So for now... All I could do is to pray for these lost souls our there... May you rest in peace...
Let's have a minute for the victims of these calamity...
Ok... It's the new year... I shall not dwell too much on the unhappy events around us... Though I truly hope that people stop dying and make the world a better place to live in... Anyway, coming back to the new year... Before we embark and embrace the new year we should always do some reflections on the past year... So here I am doing some sort of personal reflections... Please don't mind me...
2004... Hmmm... It's been a interesting year for me... Believed I grew up alot during this year... Learnt and experienced many life-changing moments... For one, my great-grandma suddenly passed away 3 weeks ago... Didn't cry till the very last day... Became the top 3 cry-baby of the family (according to my cousins)... Think they had a shock to see me cry till like this because... Trust me... I'm not known for my crying... However, this shows something... My tear duct is still working... Not bad...
Next would be my aunt being relocated to her Tokyo office... My dearest aunt... I can term her as my... Hmmm... "unmother" mother? I treat her as my mother more than my mom... Haha.. Can't blame me... She was there when I needed most... Kind of my mental support... Then, she left... Left this cock-up place for a better place in Tokyo... Feel so happy for her... Finally!! She's living the life she always wanted... Of course I'm sad that she left... But really glad for her... Let's just say life hasn't been good to her till now...
Then, as for my friends... There were ups and downs here and there... The problem with me is that I've many close friends... And I feel sad when I'm not able to give them the care and concern I should be giving as a close friend...
So... To all my friends out there...
I'm sorry if I haven't been there much for you guys... I'll try to be a better friend this year but trust me... You all are always in my mind... And if you guys ever run into some problems or trouble... Don't hesitate to call me... I'll never say no to you all...And will always by your side... Cheers to our friendship!!
Next, though I don't have the perfect happy family... But I still thank God for giving me what I'm having now... I may complain about them every now and then but at the end of the day, they're still my family... They play a part in making up who I am today... So... To all the cock-ups families around... Cheers!!
Lastly, on a personal level... I think after 2004, I should really get more serious in life... Stop procrastinating... Pay more attention to my studies and try to reduce my complains in life... Afterall... We only get to live once...
p.s. 10 more days to adulthood... Cheers!~
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