Commitments...

I hate commitments...
Totally hate that fact that I need to be answerable about my actions to people... Maybe that is why I'm still happily single till today... But what I meant commitments is way beyond the boy-girl relationship type... I meant having to explain my way of doings to people or even them telling me what I should or should not do...

For goodness sake, this is MY life... I know what I want and what I'm doing...

For normal case, when someone crosses these lines, I will F**K them upside down inside out... But if they turn out to be close friends of mine or I'm able to see where it's coming from, I will swallow my F**k-up mood and listen to what they have to say...

However, trust me, I will normally not change for the better... I'm THAT stubborn... That is also one point my mom dislikes me so much... I'm just not meant to be that kind of sweetie-pie girl who listens and obey! It's not in me! Those who knows me knows it... This is the very thing that made me who I am and unique from the others!

And coming back to commitments... Maybe I'm one big weirdo or there's something wrong with the world... I just don't see why some people actually craves for it... Maybe this is coming from someone who hasn't been in a relationship before... But what is the actually fun behind it? Having those strings attached? Isn't it causing a hindrance as to how you live or enjoy your life? Wasting time reporting and explaining to people who at the end of the day might F**k off from your life forever...

I'm a more to actions than talk person... So maybe at the end of the day, if I ever be commited to someone, that person have to know me deep enough to get used to what I'm doing... Don't question my actions, just be there for me... Like what I will do for him... Hmmm sounds difficult for some... But we never know... Maybe there's such a person exist or maybe I will become a changed person when in "love"...
But till then, I will continue living the life I am having now... Not being questioned, not being committed...



p.s. 8 days to R(A) show... haha