Insecure...

I'm feeling insecure these days...

I don't know why...

Most of the time I'm happy, really feeling happy from the bottom of my heart...
However, when things quieten down... Like now, middle in night when all are quiet, all are calm... That's when the insecurity looms in... It slowly creeps into me...
Engulfing me...
At least, that is what I'm feeling right now...

What contributes to this insecurity?
Many... Too many to list, too afraid to face it...

My solution to this -
Keep myself busy... Really busy...
Giving tuitions;
Going for classes;
Packing up my room;
Watch tv;

However, there're still times where such feeling still looms in... It seems like it's just waiting outside... Waiting for any free moment in my life so that it can creeps to fill me...

And when it happens, I would then make myself go to sleep... Sleep off these bad feelings... Hoping it'll go away by the time I'm up...

Hoping...